Have you ever been to Tijuana Flats for their dessert? My oh my, it is SO GOOD! It's warm cookie dough flautas, lightly dusted with powdered sugar, and chocolate sauce to dip it in. That = a serious dessert and it was much needed last week when I met my lovely sister for a quick chat. We were catching up and shortly after she asked the age old question, "how are you?," I found myself crying over this amazing dessert and really...who cries over dessert?

I'll be honest. I've been in a funk. You see, I have this thing called I like to act like absolutely nothing is wrong and everything is just hunky dory when in fact it's really not. I also have this thing called I like to pretend I am superwoman and can do everything tossed in my face and absolutely kick its ass and then some. The result of all this has been a life full of freelancing, LadyBallers, blogging, eating way too much, going out of town, business meetings, getting more involved in my community, and spending too much money - basically a bunch of chaos. And this crazy awesome chaos has also resulted in losing sight of important things like eating healthy, working out, figuring out if I want to go back to school (yes, I've been contemplating this), and ultimately finding my dream career.

I feel like I keep diving into all this stuff hoping it leads to where I want to be - especially in a job I want to be in. But at the end of every day, regardless of my accomplishments, I feel like I'm just running around in circles - getting nowhere. I know I have to "pay my dues" and "good things come to those that wait" but damn. I'm tired of waiting! I'm not asking for the whole kit n' kaboodle but maybe something small that tells me, "you're on the right track." It's SO frustrating to constantly feel like you're running in place. And the things is, I don't know actually know how to GET where I want to be. I don't know if I'm going in the right direction. And I surely don't know what move I should make next.

But what I do know is that I have to slow down. A lot. So, I'm taking a couple weeks/months (eh...I'm playing it by ear) and I'm determined to get my health back on track, figure out if I can make school happen, and most definitely make moves to land my dream job. I don't know how long it will take or what will have to be compromised for it to happen, but I know that I have to gain some control back, slow down, and get back on track.

So, in an effort to start my week of strong, I went to Cranes Roost on Monday to go for a run. I think I was on lap two or three when I came up to one of the hills. From a distance, I saw in front of me a cute little family - a Mom and Dad pushing a stroller, an older one walking off to the side (clearly he didn't want to be associated with his Mom and Dad - haha), and just in front of them, a little one on a tricycle. As I watched the little boy on the tricycle get closer to the hill, I just knew he was going to have a hard time getting all the way up. He got about a fourth of the way when all of a sudden, I saw him starting to roll back slowly. So, I ran up behind him and asked him if he wanted help. His eyes LIT up and he quickly nodded his head. I started pushing the bike and telling him to pedal really fast. All he really did was just looked at me smiling (and I'm sure he parents were thinking I was probably going to kidnap him). But eventually, we got to the top of the hill, and I asked him, "are you good?" His eyes just lit up and he nodded his head.

Oddly, this made me see clearer that...

There's always going to be moments that will test me.
There's always going to be moments where I might fall.
There's always going to be moments where I might stumble.

But I have to remember that these are just moments...little speed bumps on my journey. Even though I really wish I could be superwoman, I realize now that it's really okay that I'm not. And I know that even if and when (you know there will be a when) I try to be superwoman again, there will always be someone to push me and help me along the way, even if it's just for a moment.

*Starbucks photo credit goes to Brandon Stephenson because he's the awesome/silly friend that sent it to me and I have no clue where he got it =)