December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)
I’m the kind of girl who likes to stay busy. I get bored pretty easily so I fill my plate up with projects and social gatherings and leave little time to relax beyond the 6-7 hours of sleep (if I’m lucky) I get at night.
Back in June, I had a bit of a breakdown. I had gone and made my life so incredibly busy that I found I had absolutely no time to breathe and my stress levels were through the roof. I never slept, I put my health on the back burner, I put everyone else’s needs in front of my own, and I was quite simply a mess. I felt myself growing distant – not physically distant but emotionally distant. I was present in body but not usually in spirit. I grew quite good at putting on a show and although others perceived me as being “happy,” I was really just crying out of for help on the inside.
So, for me, the wisest decision I made this year was to slow down.
When I burst out in somewhat of an uncontrollable sob while sharing dessert with my sister, it hit me that I just couldn’t live this way anymore. It didn’t matter that I wanted so desperately to advance my career, grow my network, support my friends in their endeavors, or anything of that sort. In fact, for once, the only thing that mattered at that moment was me – a far stretch from what I had been putting as priority in my life.
So, I removed myself from the chaos of my own life and promised myself I would put me first regardless of what was happening around me. I started eating healthier, I got back to the gym, I took the majority of the week to just relax on my couch, I slept, and little by little, I was put back together – I was finally strong again – mind, body, and spirit.
“Slow down and enjoy life. It’s not only the scenery you miss by going to fast – you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.” ~Eddie Cantor